オレンジデイズOrange Days

 

 

这几天晚上睡觉的时候,脚总是出汗,可是却是冰冷的,开着电热毯和空调也没有帮助.所以今天跑去看老中医.

大夫说我是气虚所致,因为心理压力和长期饮食方面的偏执及不规律,总之有关脾胃.

哦,本来我还以为他说气虚是指肾虚呢,当时我立刻想到的是易先生这三个字.

嘿嘿,我可没那么多色戒好犯.

 

下面公布药方,给有同样困扰的朋友看看!

 

 

                          HELLO LOVER 

 

 

This morning somebody was asking me updating my space when I was looking backward how the life’s going on these months. I couldn’t help thinking it’s raddled.

 

First of all, the only saving grace these days is just my fat. This made the point why all my life massed. I have been thinking why many people got so powerful of their confidence with the appearance. Let’s put it this way, if I am fat ( actually I am ), which can drive me bad mood of doing anything, or going anywhere. I wouldn’t buy new dress or enjoy the happy hour all the time, but I can’t stop eating and make the situation worse. Maybe they are in the more health lifestyle or psychological moment, but I just can’t, or so maybe they say if you are 20 u kept this idea ur adorable, but seriously, I am 25, suppose to be more mature…

 

Well, what my action’s buying a new phone and wish all the life turning formula.

 

Sometime I devote kind of mind to irrespective things, like a new cell phone. I know it’s just an excuse I took myself aback, not exaggerated, Nina broken my new phone at the first day, which taking me so bad internal, I even bought a new one, the same new one the 2^nd day and leave the broken phone drawer home. Its definitely a small nick indeed.

 

Save me, I am going crazy.

 

I blamed the pressure.

 

But where’s that pressure come from?

 

The car’s crashed at the intersection. DVD player’s out of service. More than RMB15,000/month credit of the house…. Etc. All of these need money, so much money. I already made both ends meet, but still couldn’t afford it, even more, when S told me the big proposal next year.

 

HE WANT TO INVEST AN OWN CLUB HOUSE.

 

I can’t say its really a good observation after he explained the details to me, yet all the things addressed us like the ropewalker. It really takes huge risk. And we need many supporting. I have been thinking over days and default it.

 

I think that what kicked all of the massed living off. It’s not a game after all.

 

But I will survive, and we will survive.

 

Look at me, I am a abso-fuckin-lutly turning old 25 man.

 

 

 

Continuation

 

Wake up at 4 this morning, suffered from a nightmare.

 

Within there, I was just talking to my sister, when a man’s trying to steal our bicycle. He’s intimidating me by holding a lancet. I felt my heart flip-flapped in my chest. My parting father haunted, overmastered him. I waked spang up.

 

I have been on the prowl of the indication by the dreamland the whole morning. I concerned if there will be some misfortune in my life. Its getting worse and worse of the relations between me and my mother, so is this rapport mean my father’s trying to remonstrate me? I got no idea at all. He’s saving my life.

 

Received a mail from Mr. Lau, my adoring teacher and friend. It seems many commercial intercourse returned to me. I might be too strain to treat the normal things, but I do really be in irritancy of the relations with my mum, and meanwhile, the career pressure drive me desperation.

 

I suppose to release myself for a long vacation.

 

  

上海的天氣越發炎熱，每天清晨5點多鈡，我傢小區裏的知了就開始唱歌，唱一整天。

搬進新傢以前一直在計劃怎麽裝修怎麽弄，到頭來完全沒了力道，只是把它打掃得很乾淨，然後接回狗狗一起生活。

早上10點鐘出門去公司，開始坐公交車，很多年沒坐過公交車了，這回終點站就在小區門口，可以坐到公司正門口，晚上也可以從公司門口上車回家，都有位置，所以超方便。

只是附近沒什麽外賣，有時候我到超市買咖喱回家自己煮飯，有時候就去食堂--南京西路的屋企，雖然是有點吃厭了。或者就買好多豆漿放在家裏，邊喝邊看DVD，也算有規律。

 

這麽多年了，終于過上了有規律的生活，原來這麽享受的。

 

最近一直在聼一些網絡歌手的歌，像Terra Naomi啦，Charles Barkley之類的。樓下就是大自鳴鐘碟片市場，可以濤到好多優質的唱片和電影。另外，我都覺得myspace很好，捧紅了這麽多的確有才華的歌手，看到國内如此火熱的選秀節目，不僅感嘆何時才能真正出一個有料的平民star呢？

 

無論如何叫著無聊，這樣的夏天還是寧靜安逸的。

原來我很容易滿足。 

 

 

那年夏天...... 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

一只命運多牟的小兔子，送給一個在黑暗中不斷經歷破碎卻不斷前行的小男生。